why?

I haven't even spoken to my boyfriend yet, and I don't know what to do.

I feel like he wants me to choose between him and my best guy friend.

This is not an easy decision; I can't just up and choose one over the other.

There are reasons why I would pick both, and there are reasons why I wouldn't choose either.

I don't want to be put through that situation.

I don't want to have to choose.

I want BOTH of them in my life.

Why can't I?

I also have a strange suspicion that if I make the wrong decision, I'll lose my boyfriend.

I don't want to lose him; somehow we mesh really well and I like that.

We are so different, but I realize that we actually work well together.

Just typing this makes me feel sad.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

Hopefully it'll be good.