Again, I have the feeling that I don't want to be in my current relationship.

I don't know why these feelings suddenly creep up on me when I least expect it.

I think it may have something to do with me coming home and having the chance to see him.

I really don't know what to do.

I don't want to hurt him or anything, because he's a great guy, but I don't know if he's what I want.

I honestly don't think that I am in love with him.

I thought I was, but it was infatuation.

I'm hoping that I can get all of this straightened out soon, but I have a sneaking suspicion that the ending will not be pretty.

I just have to talk to him as soon as I can.

God, I hate my life.

Of course some shit like this would happen to me.

Just when I thought my life was mostly figured out, God fucking flips it upside down.

Why?

That's all I want to know.

This sucks.