My life hasn't really changed since the last time I blogged.
I think that I have diagnosed myself.
I noticed today that when I am not around my boyfriend, I feel like our relationship can't last, but when I'm near him, everything feels ok.
It's really fucking weird.
Do you ever have the feeling that you want to fast forward into the future?
Of course, you won't answer me because you are a computer/website.
I'm pretty sure that like one person actually reads what I write.
Whatevs, everyone else is missing out on an AWESONE read.
Not really, but it's cool.
Back to the future fast forward--I think that if I had the chance to glance into my future for like a minute, I'd do it.
I would want to see how my life ends up 10 years from now.
Like, where will I be living? What will I be doing? Will I have a family? Will I be in a relationship?
These are the questions that plague me at night.
I can safely assume that I'm interested in Psychology because I think WAY too much.
I always have something on my mind, and like to analyze situations and people thoroughly.
It's what I do. I enjoy it.
I'm pretty much a freak.
Basically.
I need to hit the gym or something.
I just feel really fat this week.
I also made a promise to myself that during college I would change my physique.
Which, hasn't really happened yet.
Maybe when I get a job and become more active, the weight will start to drop.
Highly unlikely, but I can still dream.
Seriously though, I need to lose a few inches off my waist.
I have major body image problems, but I have cause.
I have always been overweight, and have been the second heaviest person in my family.
Which is not the way it should be.
I'm tired of having to buy larger sizes, or being the biggest girl in a class.
I also HATE going shopping with people I don't know very well.
It stresses me out.
For reals.
My goal: To lose at least 15 pounds by Halloween.
I have to look hot in my costume.
Der.
I'll keep my progress posted every week or so, in order to keeo up my motivation.
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