Why...

I'm so tired.
Tired of what, you may ask?
Tired of people, tired of places, tired of uncertainty, just tired of it all.
The only thing that I look forward to is college.

Because this is my only chance to change my life.
I need this change so bad, it's killing me slowly.
I HATE my life right now; learning things that one shouldn't know can change a person's perception of others.

I have to completely overhaul my whole life. Everything.

Why is it that my whole life seemed to collapse on itself this past year?
I don't understand how some people can live in one place for so long.
Maybe I'm the weird one who has to have change every so often. Maybe other people enjoy where they live and the surroundings. I envy those people.

Is it too much to ask for a normal life?
Why should I be exposed to things I don't like or need to see?
I shouldn't have to hate going into my own fucking house after a certain hour, or worry about my brother who I haven't seen in 2 days.

Why does childhood have to end?
Why does life have to get more complicated by the second?
I have a feeling that this question will never be answered.